I Don't Even Know

Don't know what to call this, a ramble perhaps...
I have been through a hard time, I have, I know I'm not alone, there are many people who go through hard times, but... I have been through a hard time and I am still going through it. It's okay to admit that and acknowledge it.
The person who has helped me the most to go through this time? Maddie Lee. She has been my shoulder to cry on, my confidence when I had none, my comfort, my distraction from wanting to wallow, my dear, dear friend, my hope, my sister, my example, my voice of wisdom, and my constant supporter. When I am down and I want to stop fighting, she asks me why? and I realize that I don't want to quit fighting. When I am feeling like I am worth so little she shakes me and tells me I am worth so much. When I want to scream and yell she screams and yell right along with me. She has saved me and says she was only returning the favor.
Both of us have recently lost someone we love very much and have comforted each other and helped each other through it.
What are best friends for? Even if you haven't talked to them in a while. Best friends will always be there for you when you need them most.
Good luck on your mission you crazy awesome girl! I know you will be the best missionary you can be and you will give it your all. Look out Anchorage, Alaska mission!